But God spoke to me during that time...a LOT.
I am leaving my current church in two weeks - it's a decision that didn't come lightly to me, one I agonized over, and God left me PLENTY of messages that I chose to ignore...Now that I made the decision, I feel great...I won't have to be a WL anymore, I can just go to a church, worship God, and find my niche...
Lately though, I've really felt drawn to the teens and their worship. Are they being taught the biblical foundations? or is it just a way for the church (any church...not saying mine, yours, or anyone elses...a generic church, if you will) to entice them to come to worship on Sundays, or to keep them busy? Do they just let them bang out their favorite songs to a mediocre performance, or do they instill the values that God has instilled in His church? Do they instruct, build up, teach, exhort, encourage?
I don't know.
If I had been taught along my "worship ministry" journey, it would have been a LOT easier. Most of the stuff I found out on my own. I did have a wonderful WL at one church I attended that really instilled a good set of core values in me. But the rest just sort of prayed before practice, we would practice, get musically corrected, and that was it. Sort of like a glee club with faith.
I have tried to put rhyme with my reason on my team. If I say "no, it's not good enough", I add "for God, because scripture tells us whatever we do, do our BEST...doesn't mean it has to be perfect, but we need to put forth our best effort"...or something along those lines...I include Him in the song selection process, and let the team know...if we are having problems with a song, we'll stop rehearsal and pray. Do kids do that?
I don't know.
I do know, I love teenagers. I love their inquisitive minds, their opinions, their enthusiasm for life. I love discussing religion with them, even when it's not easy. I love how accepting they are of you, if YOU are accepting of them. I love their optimism and exuberance. I love how they embrace life fully, unhesitating. I love how they hold you accountable for what YOU tell them YOU believe.
I would love to be a shepherd to these kids...to gently insert solid foundations for worship in their hearts, to strengthen their spiritual armor, and to have them learn about musical worship and the responsibilities that go along with it, as well as the benefits and blessings it provides for others. How music can be a learning tool for the congregation, how God can use it to minister, even to perhaps just one person in an outstanding way.
Now I understand why David threw off his kingly robes, and danced in front of the Lord with abandon.
When David returned home to bless his household, Michal daughter of Saul came out to meet him and said, "How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, disrobing in the sight of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!"
David said to Michal, "It was before the LORD, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the LORD's people Israel—I will celebrate before the LORD. I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor." ....2 Samuel 6:20-22