Story behind the song ... The First Time

How this song came about was completely out of a blue. I never expected to write a song that day and especially in the early morning. So here an account of how I came to writing this song ...

I woke up yesterday morning, showered and was feeling really lethargic. It was a really cold morning and I wasn't up to doing anything. So I made myself a cup of really hot coffee, sat at my work desk and surfed Youtube watching some Gary V.'s music videos. There was this one particular video that had a little girl in it and I was thinking she looks so much like RobynMae (my 9 yr old). I've always known this but, it sudden dawned on me that next year she will be 10, moving on to her preteens stage. That made me wished that I could just stop time, hold her in my arms and never let her go.

It's one of those moments that you have a flood of emotions crashing in. I really didn't know how to handle it or expressed it. So I closed the Safari (the equivalent to IE on Windows) and walked away from the computer for a couple of minutes to collect my thoughts. Then I sat down again at my desk and picked up my guitar. I needed to get it off my chest.

It didn't take me long to write this song, but it's the hardest song for me to write to date and singing it was even harder still. It didn't really help the situation when I sang it to my wife (Christina) and she was just balling. For those of you single people, this song may not mean much. But it will probably strike a note with those parents who have daughter / daughters.

Is there any spiritual lessons that can be learnt out of this. I'm not too sure. But one thing I do know ... after realizing how much I can love my children and if that's how my Father in heaven loves me, I'm eternally blessed. But I know He loves me and my children more than I can love ... That My Friends! It's the GREATEST LOVE OF ALL! What would be your response to Him? God Bless y'all!

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Comment by Jeffery Scott Milner on July 17, 2009 at 8:22pm
I'M A FATHER OF 4. JUSTIN 20,1988 JUILIE 15, 1993, JOEY 13 1996. THEN MY DAUGHTER JILLIAN,WHO WOULD BE 19, BUT DIED OF CANCER OF THE BRAIN IN 1992 AT AGE 2. SHE'D GRADUATE THIS YEAR. MY WIFE LEFT ME IN 2000. IN MY LIFE I'VE BEEN WRITING AND SINGING MUSIC SINCE 1993. AT THE AGE OF 48, I'VE WRITEN 14 SONGS AND HAD THEM ON ICE. I'M JUST A JESUS LOVING MUSIC MAN THAT RELATES TO YOUR SONG THE FIRST TIME - IT BLEW MY MIND. WHEN YOU GET DONE PRODUCING YOUR COPYRIGHT, I'D SURELY BE GREATFUL TO GET YOUR CD AND WOULD BE MY HONOR TO HAVE THE CHORDS AND SING THIS SOMETIME FOR PRAISE & WORSHIP. WHAT A TESTIMONY. TO SING THIS FOR MY FIFTEEN YEAR OLD IN THE CHURCH AND MY DAUGHTER IN HEAVEN. THE PAIN NEVER GOES AWAY. BUT I KNOW GOD LENT HER FOR A SHORT TIME AND GOD NEEDED HER MORE. I'M BLESSED WITH A NEW WIFE WHO MY CHILDREN ADORE. JUST WANTED TO KNOW IF I COULD GET CHORDS TO PLAY WITH. I PLAY AROUND WITH MY OWN MUSIC. I'VE BEEN DISABLED SINCE I999, AND HAD A BRAIN INJURY. BUT I'VE MAKING STEP IN THIS TIME ON THIS SHORT TIME ON EARTH. LOT OF PAIN BUT GOD'S CONTROL. GOD BLESS YOUR MUSIC AND MAY YOU KEEP SINGING PEOPLE TO THE LORD. JEFF MILNER

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