One of the things that has been burning on my heart has been preparing myself for worship.
I used to get bogged down in the egos and the issues that people bring to the table. I fretted and fuzzed over who said what, who did what, and tried to fix all of that stuff. I finally decided that fixing myself and dealing with my own heart and purpose was all that was really needed. I needed to refocus on why I was playing music in church in the first place.
People can make all kinds of excuses for the barriers thay they leave up for themselves. Petty jelousy, high need for control, a lack of preparation in music or in heart, a need to own a worship service, whatever it it, was just getting in my way.
So, How do I deal with it now? I pray about what I play, when I play it, and pray about the songs that I pick for service. I pray and listen to the worship leader when I am in that role, and pray that the Lord guides my heart and steps to make wise choices in the group that I am blessed to lead.
I work on my own skills and don't worry about anything but serving the lord in the song and to create an atmosphere that is conducive for others to share their gifts. I play what I am asked to play. I try to play in a way that gives others space to share and worship as well. I cant worry about the who, what, can, or cant. I dont concern myself with the do or dont do.
At the end of the day, we all have to stand before the almighty and give an account for how we have served. Ive made my share of mistakes as a member and as a leader. I am trying to spend more time in the word, more time practicing, and more time praying. I am also spending more time in prayer for my services and for my bandmates.
Doing my best, one day at a time.