I think one of the things I meditate on the most (and talk to God about the most) is the F-word...you know...FAITH...something we all strive for, but few attain? Oh, we have faith, but not that deep, unwavering faith that we all yearn for. And if you think you have it, let me ask you something - did you ever worry about anything? Because if you did, you don't have that unwavering faith.
When God & I were having our regular conversation (btw Lord, GREAT clouds today - and the rest of you...look up! :), I asked Him why is it so hard to have faith, when He shows us time and time and time again, just how much He is a part of our lives?
Scripture exhorts us to have faith -
if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. (Matthew 17:20)
If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you. (Luke 17:6)
Daughter, your faith has healed you. (Mark 5:34)
Have faith in God (Mark 11:22)
I think you get the picture :)
So...what's the problem? Why are we a bunch of doubting Thomases? Even if we KNOW God will do what He says, we still doubt.
I don't want to put the blame solely on Satan - let's not give him any more credit than he doesn't deserve...I think a lot of it lies within our human nature as well...
But for me, it's one of the most frustrating things in my walk of faith with the Lord...the one thing that drives me nuts time, and time, and time again, and drags me down on my knees when God just pours His mercy out on me, and says "Hey...it's ok..maybe next time"...I'm so ashamed.
How do YOU get that unwavering faith? What has worked for you?
Last week I was waiting for some test results. God had given me such a strong peace, I knew it would be fine, and I made a concerted effort not to doubt what He gave me...each time I would affirm and praise Him for the peace He gave me. I looked up a lot at the clouds and gave Him thanks :)...I did better than I ever had before, except the day when they were supposed to call me with the results. I knew in my heart...they were negative...but that trepidation began to creep in ever so slowly, but I nipped it in the bud, renounced Satan (just in case) and then refocused on the Lord each time I felt that trepidation...One of the scriptures that came to mind was this one...
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? (Matthew 6:27)
Every time I felt that worry creeping up, I would say that scripture, and it made me smile. It was almost like God was saying "Ya see? I TOLD you!" LOL
And yes, of course the results were negative! Because God let me know I had nothing to worry about!...And I was kind of proud of myself this time, because I only let the worry creep in for a few short moments, instead of the normal worrying that any woman or mom does on a daily basis :) Now...if I could JUST get rid of the rest of this worry, I'll be great! I'd have that unwavering faith that I think each and every one of us long for.
Hey...but baby steps right Lord? :-) I am just so thankful we have a loving and merciful father, who despite our shortcomings, continues to bless and encourage us.