How am I Gonna Fit Here?
My name is Jen. I am a songwriter and a worship pastor . . . of sorts. The church in which I served closed its doors in the early Fall of 2009. We were a very small (too small), tight knit group. A family, with all of its blessings and struggles! Now, in this brand spanking new year, my family and I have found ourselves in a body that, at this point, we believe God has led us to. I trust the Lord and His provision at this new place, though I feel like a foreigner. Unlike my former Fellowship, this church appears to run pretty smoothly. Checks and balances in place. Procedure and leadership training in place. Several worship teams, a variety of styles represented. Check. Several songwriters attend and contribute. A focus on small groups and creating true community through those small groups and activity groups. So, what's the problem? Well, there doesn't appear to be any gaping hole of need for me to fill. To be blunt and completely honest, God has greatly increased the size of the pond I am swimming in, and I feel a little insecure at times! How do I fit, if I am not "needed"? I feel a bit small. Not only do I feel anonymous, which is an uncomfortable place for a hyper-expressive person, I feel . . . different. Sometimes I wonder if I were to be invited/allowed/welcomed to serve on a worship team, would the contributions I have to make be acceptable to the existing "system", or would I need to lay aside my ideas and jump into the current and do what those around me are doing? I suppose there is merit to laying down my way of doing "things". Jenfucious say, "There is much that God will do with a square peg willing to fit into a round hole". I am not in turmoil over this current state of affairs, I know that God will use me as He sees fit. Even if it looks like there is no way or no room for me, all the "earth" is His, and He is a generous and masterful Creator of opportunity. Praise Him, watch Him, wait for Him.
I hope that this group will find members. I would love to encourage others and be encouraged by those who are finding His fit. God bless you and keep you!
Worship Leader Forum - Worship Forums for Worship Leaders
Started by Jennifer Bluhm. Last reply by Lorraine Doswell Oct 8, 2010.
Let's discuss the benefits to being "square". Hughey Lewis believes we're hip. What do you think?
Started by Jennifer Bluhm. Last reply by Greg Moore Oct 5, 2010.
I have often wondered, especially in light of recent Old Testament study, how I am to look upon "land" that is "occupied". Do I enter the land with the expectation that I belong in that land? I have…Continue
Started by Jennifer Bluhm. Last reply by Lorraine Doswell Aug 17, 2010.
I thought it would be good to *Add a Discussion* about what the Lord has been doing in the lives of our Square Pegs! I have certainly landed in unexpected territory :) When I started this group, I…Continue
Started by Jennifer Bluhm. Last reply by Greg Moore Aug 15, 2010.
I would love to hear from other worship leaders/song leaders that for one reason or another have found themselves sort of "unused". I don't mean that in a prideful way, like, "How can these people…Continue
Tags: significance, unused, new, participate